sanguine miasma

 Hello, I'm now 17. Eek! My birthday was incredible. I got everything I asked for, and more. I had one panic attack and one close-call - the close-call around 2pm, overstimulated and close to a meltdown, and the panic attack around 10pm, from anxiety about getting old and feeling bad that my dad didn't get to be there for it. But I dealt with it. I got: - a new laptop - 2 FNaF posters - paint supplies - makeup supplies - a weighted dino plushie - clothes - a touch-activated squishy duck lamp - a murder mystery solo game - Scooby Doo purse and shopping bags - slime - a scooter - a sit down bicycle exercise thing - Playstation giftcard And probably other things I'm forgetting. I feel very spoilt and very happy. I think this is the best birthday presents I might have ever gotten. I had a great day too, my mum made me toast for breakfast, no one upset me, I hugged my stepdad for the first time in probably almost a decade, I got to see my uncle, I had cake, I got to pet my uncle...

 Tomorrow, I turn 17. I'm not so scared of it being my birthday, but I am a bit nervous about actually having been alive for seventeen years. That's a really long time, and I worry I haven't spent it well. Since turning 16, I have... - Got my learner's driver's license - Completed Subnautica, Subnautica: Below Zero, Bioshock, Bioshock 2, Mondstadt, and the main Archon quests of Liyue - Got my autism diagnosis - Gained a healthy amount of weight Thinking about it, it seems like a lot. But writing it down,  it seems like nothing. I think what I'm most proud of is my license, as it took a lot of work. It was hard and tiring, and I passed the test the first time. Before turning 18, I'd like to... - Finish Inazuma - Complete Bioshock: Infinite - Begin a new game series - Get at least 50 hours on my license - Gain more confidence leaving the house - Plan on furthering my education at TAFE or somewhere else - Meet up with Noah at least once - Get a job - Spend time...

Somewhere beyond the sea Something slumbers underneath When she wakes up from her dreams We'll be reborn from the deep Eleanor is the something. She was to be the first Utopian, the one who would fix everything. Hold your noses cuz we're going for another long dive Delta was a diver. Some call me Father, others call me Johnny Topside The people called him Johnny, Eleanor called him Father Long forgotten, I was swept up by the wrong tide While diving, he ended up in Rapture. Swept up by the wrong tide. Everyone forgot about him, except Eleanor. Thought my bed was made but I just woke up on the wrong side He thought he was dead, but he's back. Now, Rapture is in the wrong hands. He's in enemy territory. Or, he's on the wrong side of the glass, away from Eleanor. Jump starting up my heart, I've hit my second wind He was revived by the Vita-Chamber. Back from the dead, Subject Delta checking in Revving up the engine that has blended our genetics The drill revs up? H...