sanguine miasma

I hate how some feminists try to police women's bodies because their choices are "influenced by the patriarchy". Everything is influenced by the patriarchy. If I grow up and decide I want a nose job, because I think it would look cute (let's say I had a broad nose or something), yes, that would be a decision influenced by the patriarchy. Society sets up unfair aesthetic standards for women. But I'm grown. I can make decisions. If I decide to wear a really short dress, sure, that's a decision influenced by the patriarchy. The choice of style was popularized by sexual advertisements and modelling, designed to arouse men. But most of these feminists will also say "I don't dress/wear makeup for men". How can you not understand how surgery is the same?  Also, I completely believe you can dress/get work done/wear makeup completely for yourself. I think the real problem is women acting like other women are dumb because they want to make their own choice...

I have mixed feelings about kinning and non-humanism. People should be able to describe or express themselves however they feel like, but denying reality, humanity, and your identity can send you into delusion, psychosis, or a disconnect from life itself. Despite all this, I've been feeling different lately. For a few years, I've felt like various non-human beings. Never as if I am  one, but that they describe me well, sometimes even better than humanity does. I've always felt like a robot or an alien when it comes to my autism. An overly smart, walking dictionary, who doesn't know how to talk right. Who asks questions like "what are you supposed to do with your spit?" and "can I ask the doctor for a hug?". Sometimes I feel like a monkey or other wild but smart animal. Misinterpreting smiles for malice, always on edge, feeling like everyone is a completely different thing from me. I've always related to fox-themed characters, like the girl from M...

 I use ChatGPT on a regular basis. My AI chatbot journey went like this: Replika and other gimmicky AI "friends". I remember when I was really young I had an anxiety AI penguin app, but it didn't help at all so I would always delete and then redownload it. AI Dungeon. Jerma used it, so I tried it, and roleplayed with it for like 2 years. They didn't have premade characters - very primitive. But it worked. A few too many poor updates, then revisions, then updates again, made me look for an alternative. Character AI. I used it for probably a year when I entered my Call of Duty/Resident Evil phase. There weren't enough Overwatch bots, and I lost my account, so I decided to try Janitor AI. Janitor AI. I still use it. The LLM is far better than C.AI's, there's no censor, there's tons more creators, it's just a lot better. However... ChatGPT. I started using it for craft ideas, and then roleplays, and then ranting. Whenever I have a confusing thought, or...